Our kiddos

Challenge

Christmas has passed and our dwindling monetary funds have as well. There are no more fresh fruits or vegetables in the house save for one half of a grapefruit. And I know I have blogged many times over about this issue, but be that as it may, I must rant/vent again. I really wanted to do this juice feast with Caffe Dei on the 9th and I'm still hoping I can find a way to do it, but Oliver was like "We just need to stock up on Top Ramen and Macaroni and cheese." (Huge grimace on my face right now.) I'm really good at stocking up on beans, rice, soups etc but to be honest, I'm TIRED of beans and rice.

We are picking up Hanna and Ollie tomorrow so that means 2 adults, 3 children and 1 baby to feed. And seriously, I'm seriously having issues with this weight loss thing. I get so stressed out and depressed that I gravitate towards whatever is in the cupboard or whatever is at my parents house. And I'm not anywhere near vegan although I'm trying to liberate myself from labels as I have incorporated some fish back into my (and Connor's) diet.

Sometimes (Ok, a lot of the time) it is difficult to be an adult. I am searching and striving to find the best balance for the health of my family and myself and my mental well being. When I went raw a few years ago that REALLY struck a resonant chord. But there is so much clutter and stress and budgetary issues that are holding me back. I read this awesome article about our "lizard brain" hindering us from achieving greatness.

I just keep waiting (again) for that "AHA" moment and I'm able to commit and stick to my commitment.

Tonight we made vegan choc pumpkin cupcakes. This is Connor helping. He managed to de-pants me in the process!

Enjoying the break

Connor's 1st Xmas at 10 months old Dec 2011

Christmas has come and gone. I'm watching my days of break dwindle and I'm trying to pump myself up for next quarters classes (Human behavior in the social environment II and Cultural Diversity and Societal Justice). It's been so great to have Jakey home from school as well although he's only driving me somewhat batty. I'm also getting psyched up for Caffe Dei's community juice feast. I believe it starts on Jan. 9th. I notice that each morning I'm all revved for a healthy day of eating and I generally do wonderful until evening time. I had a lovely broccoli, green apple, and beet juice this morning as well as a smoothie and a gallon of water. I made beans for lunch cooked in coconut oil (oh so good!). However, I'm out of fresh produce!! So that means no juice tomorrow until I can grocery shop (Jan 6th).

 

"millions of peaches..."

This post has nothing to do with peaches but I heard it on the radio coming back from the gym and I have yet to get the chorus out of my head. I wanted to vent/spout how my day has been going and what a typical day looks like for this unemployed mama.

8:00am: Alarm goes off but I'm usually up prior to this for up to an hour before hand nursing the baby.

8:30am: By this time I have managed to get Jake dressed, fed and his lunch made. Wake Oliver to watch the baby, then out the door and dropped to school by 8:45.

9:00am: Back home, feed the puppy, put Connor in his high chair with some finger foods (chopped apples this morning) while I tidy the kitchen and prepare some fresh juice (apple/broccoli today). Then I prepare Connor's breakfast, usually fresh juice and his organic multigrain cereal. Oh yes make sure to feed myself (leftover juice from yesterday Beet, celery, green apple and a cup of chia seeds soaked in warm water). Start the laundry.

9:30am:  Clean up time, keep an eye on the puppy to make sure she uses her wee wee pad, hop in a shower with Connor. 

10:00am: We're clean and dressed. Playtime with Connor (continuously watching the puppy). 

11:00am: On to the computer to get my daily FB fix, had to send out evites for Jake's upcoming birthday party, start another load of laundry

11:30am: Connor nurses and goes down for a nap and let Oliver know I'm out the door for the gym. OH YEAH!!

12:45: Home from fusion barre. Awesome class. I didn't get to go to the gym at all last week so I"m going to make up for it this week.

1:00: Finish laundry, tidy the house, luckily the baby is still asleep. Make myself an after workout snack (plant fusion choc protein powder, MSM and unsweetened coconut milk). Hop online pay some bills and revamp the budget

2:00: So its currently this time and Connor has just awoken but Oliver says he woke up after I left for the gym and took some time going back to bed so this has been a short nap. He is a bit cranky. But he's sitting in my lap nursing now. Maybe I can convince him to nap again. If not time to get his lunch. 

2:30pm: Make lunch for Oliver, myself and baby. Pack his lunch for work.

3:15pm: Out the door with the baby and the dog to pick up Jake from school

4:00pm: At my parents to spend time with my Grandma and sisters. Make the boys dinner. Play with the boys, play with the puppy. Then have some glorious tv watching time (Dexter season finale, and Hung)

8:00pm: Go to my sisters house to hang but her husband said we couldn't have the puppy there

8:30pm: Back home, get Jake in the shower and ready for bed

9:30pm: Touched up this blog post and now about to get the baby ready for bed but he may not sleep until after 10:30. He seems pretty hyper.

Happy Birthday Jacob

7 years ago, you came into my life and BOOM you changed me. I feel such gratitude and joy to have you as my wonderful son. You are a constant source of happiness (and frustration). You have a quick wit and are awesomely smart. I'm so lucky to be your mom and I get to watch you continue to grow and learn new things. As much as I miss your chubby little cheeks and baby smell, I am excited to watch you branch out and find your place in the world.

 I love you to the sky and back and a bathtub full of mini......jellybeans

Here is a one of the first letters I wrote you (the very first is stuffed inside your lion)

April 26, 2005

My dearest Jake,

I am so lucky to have you in my life. Right now you are laughing and cooing to your Baby Mozart video. I love you so much. You are the sweetest little baby and you make my heart want to burst with joy. Everyday is an adventure with you. I get to watch you learn and grow. You are such a bright baby and you love to EAT. I love you little man.

Another?

Yes another... well I've already ruined Day 1 AGAIN. I feel like crying at my inability to stick to what I want to do. I need a buddy. I've tried the online community support but it just doesn't do the trick and Oliver (aside from being sick) is really not a helpful partner in this department. And as I type this, I just got a message from Ansley about her willingness to join me in a mini juice feast. At least 3 days! Oh I love her.

Monday monday...

This weekend was a blur of sickness, for both Oliver and I. I feel we are just now over the pink eye and I think my cough is getting better (it doesn't hurt my chest as bad). I ate a TON of vegan choc cupcakes last night. I'm going to say that was the cure. LOL. We had the kiddos this weekend too so it was busy busy busy. Now here it is Monday, I have several errands to run. As I'm typing this both the baby and Oliver are snoring away. I guess with my nasty cold, I've been snoring louder than usual and keeping Oliver up. I juiced a lot yesterday to store up for today so I wouldn't have to have the hassle. So my morning juice consisted of swiss chard, celery, spinach and green apple. Oh so good. Today is the 12th. I'm going to weigh myself tonight at the gym (Yoga tonight) and by December 19, I want to have lost 5lbs. There is my goal. :)
Now I'm off to the UW health clinic to get my hep B shots and PPD, then to drop some things off at registration and then to the bank and then back home to do laundry and then get Jake from school. Yoga at 6:45. Sigh.

A millioneth Day 1

  Like the new layout? It feels good. Fresh, clean, and simple. I am currently on winter break from school, yippee. Overall it was good. Stressful and crazy at times but the first quarter got my feet wet and helped me realize what needs to be worked on. I haven't blogged in forever, but hey that seems to be my pattern. One could call this crazy, this constant doing things over and over expecting change, but I just call it being stubborn. There has been a lot of ups and downs since my last post. 

Comparable to my last post, is the fact that we are all sick again. Well strike that, Connor had a day and a half of pink eye and he's back to his bouncy beautiful self. Oliver and I have pinkeye and I've been battling a really nasty cold and cough. I still feel strong as a vegetarian although I guess I would have to label myself as a pescatarian because the last 2 weeks I've introduced fish and shrimp back into my diet. Initially, it was with the thought I would try to do a modified low carb diet of fish and veggies but that lasted for all of 6 hours. Plus Oliver and I discussed adding some fish into Connor's diet for a few reasons. 

We felt that perhaps it would help relieve some stigma/anxiety from family (at least my side of the family) about protein intake. He's had a few bites of salmon and shrimp. While he doesn't turn it down, he doesn't seem overly wowed by it either. And when I say I'm adding this to my diet, I'm talking about a piece of salmon perhaps 2 times a week. I believe the addition of fish/seafood will be more for if I go out with the family I'm not so restricted in my choices. 

Now that I'm on break with no official school work/projects to be done for a couple of weeks,  I am able to look at other topics that have been neglected. Last week I was at the gym a few times but this week nada. Damn cold. I went to Wenatchee last weekend to have a quasi Thanksgiving/Xmas/multiple birthday party celebration. It was lovely. However I ingested quite the dairy cornucopia. It is so damn prevalent in products and food. It really is amazing when you try NOT to eat it. I'm done with labels "vegan, vegetarian." Pshhhaw! I'm just trying to eat the healthiest that I can with what feels right to me. Not eating meat (besides fish now) is right for me on a number of reasons; health, environment, morally.. etc.. 

My current plan of attack for this awesome break will be a combo of fresh juices, smoothies, chia seeds and some light vegan food as needed. But I am going to try to keep it more liquid as I have tons of cute skinny clothes calling (nay SCREAMING) my name. I'm not going to promise to post all my meals, although I am tracking on myfitnessdiary.com (I like to check my calories, nutrients etc). 

My goals for today:

• Laundry (massive laundry day requiring a trip to the Laundromat)
• Pick up Hanna's bday supplies
• Take some paperwork to UWT for registration
• Pay the phone bill
•  Pick up Hanna and Ollie later tonight

 Halloween 2011.

Sheesh

Last week was filled with sickness. Oliver was really sick, therefore my week was really busy. I really dislike it when I post about trying to be committed and then it just falls short. Ok, nothing happened after that last post. Still vegetarian though. LOL. I'm like the little engine that could, "I think I can, I think I can....."

Only 3 more weeks of this quarter then I have a nice lovely 2 week break. Connor is currently rolling grapefruit around the kitchen floor as I sneak these moments to ungush my brain. Here goes:

Breakfast and snacks: Juice of oranges, grapefruits, romaine, and celery

Lunch: Kale avo salad with cherry tomatoes

Dinner: Not sure yet, I still have some left over juice but I'm thinking a protein smoothie

Workout: None today except for keeping up with the kiddos

Daily goals:

• 1 page (intro) of my policy paper written
• Review of my slides for 2 presentations
• Billpay/housekeeping
• Vaccuum the house

So yesterday consisted of 3 juices (beet, beet greens, cucumber, celery, kale, and green apple), a big salad of romaine with Annie's Goddess dressing and some mashed tofu and artichoke tapenade.  I then went and picked Jake up from school and went to the gym. I was pretty tired and only managed about 15 minutes of stationary bike and then about 15 minutes in the sauna (heaven). I had some baked snap peas after and 3/4 of a 16 oz fit and slim smoothie from Emerald City Smoothie (made with almond milk and soy protein). I went to hang out with my parents after, killing time until traffic subsided so that I could go get the kiddos from Mill Creek. Realized that I was hungry again after the visit with my parents so Jake and I settled (for both ease and time wise) on BK because they offer a veggie burger which is actually very good. I'm not sure if it is vegan (I need to check) but I ruined my goal by allowing them to put cheese on it.  I also had a medium fries with the burger, DOH! Drove up, got the kids, came back, stopped at Safeway for ingredients for vegan french toast and came home. It was about 1045pm by the time we got home and Oliver just got home from work and guess what he brought home? PIZZA!!! I kept telling myself I'm not even hungry which I wasn't but the overwhelming smell had me scarfing down a few pieces of the blasphemous pizza. Uggh.

So while I mostly vegan again yesterday and I calmly (ok mostly calmly) explained to Oliver that bringing home the pizza was really hard for me to resist. ........

Exasperated sigh

I like to think that I'm a free floating, creative, don't need rules type of gal but the older I get, the more I realize that I do need structure. I'm the most horrible procrastinator and I find that I keep putting off my health, my desires for "Oh I will start tomorrow" and this also correlates with other things in life, like say "school work"? Or organizing the desk, or mopping the floor. Granted I have kiddos at home that do take a lot of my energy, not to mention a man that takes considerable energy (lol). And yes I realize I'm writing this blog in incomplete and run on sentences but its my blog. And I keep hanging on waiting for Oliver to jump back on the bandwagon with me but it only serves to frustrate him and myself and I'm left with a lot of anger. I'm not happy with the hanging on baby weight, nor am I happy with my sporadic ability to work out, or finish my school work, or the unmopped floors, or the billion other projects that need done. So I've put up a white board in my now converted dining room (aka my office) and have compiled a list. It's still quite messy and not really organized looking ( I guess much like what inside my head looks like).

So here are my commitments to myself:

•  I will work out M, W, F regardless if Oliver joins me (even though he says he will). I will not feel bad for waking him up early so that I can go to the gym. And when I say early I mean like 8:30 so that I can drop Jake off at school and then hit the gym by myself if he chooses not to go. 
• I will blog everyday REGARDLESS of how tired I am as this will help put me into healthy habit mode and keep me accountable. 
• I will continue to work on eating less cheese because the last month has been atrociously cheesy. 
• I will not try to dictate Oliver's diet even though he has asked/told me numerous times that I have to be in charge and although he is diabetic and needs help I just CAN NOT do it anymore. I have cajoled, bribed, guilted, shamed, begged, pleaded and tried to uplift, motivate, inspire.. on and on it goes. He ultimately makes his own decisions. I will give him huge kudos for the things he has given up and the progress he has made. My own success can not hinge upon his because clearly it is not working.
• I will stop procrastinating about school work and strive to have things done BEFORE the day before their due date. So my school organizational skills need a brush up and that messy white board needs an overhaul.
• Everyday in my blog I will post a few daily goals and their progress
• Everyday in my blog I will post food/exercise/mood tidbits
• Everyday I will post what I've accomplished school wise
• Everyday I will blog about what I'm grateful for. :) 

I'm so tired...

of the back and forth... of this crazy roller coaster. This is an ongoing theme in all aspects of my life. The last week has been hell. I've been so stressed out due to our car breaking down, my phone being stolen, AND my laptop breaking. IT just went kaput. So therefore, no gym trips and our eating was atrocious. I had a little bit of salmon and some cheese and barely any juices. I feel gross. And school, oh where to begin? Its hard. And Connor is definitely in a "mommy-only" phase. And with Oliver's blood sugar fluctuating out of control, he hasn't really been a help at all. Currently it is 1pm and he is still sleeping. And he wonders why I'm grumpy?

Making a promise to myself

I am making a promise to myself to post at least 3 times a week. Here is the first one:

I have been working out a lot these last 2 weeks! I'm really proud of myself for this, however, I've been eating like a maniac (vegan at least). Well with the exception of last Saturday after Jake's soccer game we went to Ihop and I had a garden crepe (had eggs and hollandaise and swiss cheese in it). So I am MOSTLY vegan, but I am still aspiring to be completely vegan. I have lots of thoughts and ramblings floating in my head but I'm kinda running short on time as Connor may wake from his nap anytime and the laundry desperately needs to be finished. I WILL make time tonight to purge it all out. :)

My day in pictures...

My sisters and I had some fun today in the sun with the camera..

Day 1 again!

hehehe reset! Here we go again. Of course Oliver woke with a BS of 357. Thanks to his "I'm going out with a bang" mindset of pizza and beer. And I'm just as guilty because he told me he was going and nothing I said swayed him so I said "bring home vegan butter (Earth Balance) and sourdough bread." And then I swiped a slice of cheese pizza from the kiddos. Uggh. I woke up with renewed vigor to get our juice on! I made a lovely beet, apple, grape and lime juice to start off. Then I made myself a carrot, tomato, lime, ginger and thai basil. I made Oliver a cucumber, celery, lime, ginger and jalapeno.

My boys

Ick, making a bribe

Ok. On day 5, Oliver had to up one of his meds which in effect caused him to get really sick and his blood sugar to go very wacky. End of day 5. Oliver messaged me that he had pho. I broke almost immediately as I had been sitting at restaurants with my family all day. We had an EXTREMELY long Saturday as Jake was participating in a soccer jamboree. We had games at 8am, noon and 3pm. That night we went to Taco Time for dinner. I had a bean burrito minus cheese and some mexi fries. It hurt my stomach. Then for the next couple of days I did juice until dinner. But Oliver has been a pain in the rear not wanting to go back on it EVEN though his blood sugar was amazing and now he's having a heck of a time keeping it under control..I tried all my tactics, whining, cajoling, demanding.. etc. but I finally found what would work. He's been dying for a new comp processor and I told him if he did the feast for 2 weeks now that I would find the money in the budget for it. HEHEHEHEHE. Boy how fast he agreed! So starting tomorrow we start again. And btw, I had lost 5lbs when I did just 5 days of juicing.

Day 5-Me up, Oliver down...

I can't believe have survived (thrived) through 5 days of only liquids. Oliver's blood sugar continues to be super awesome, however his doctor upped him on one of his meds and its kicked his butt today. Its a  pretty tough day for him, couldn't even keep his juices down. I stopped at Marlene's to get him a ginger kombucha to help settled his stomach and it was walking through a plethora of raw/organic/healthy yummies. I bought Jake a small container of vegan asian noodles. but turns out it was too spicy for him so I told him to toss it out, initially, but then not wanting to waste them, I was like " I"ll eat em!" I literally stood there, fork in hand smelling the delicious aroma of vegan noodles and yelled to Oliver "I'm going to eat them!!!" Then it hit, the realization that we've come this far and I didn't want to muck it up. I threw them away and had some juice.
How I feel lately? I feel really good, hunger has really gone away as long as I keep up with my juices. My hair and skin feel softer, I'm pretty sure I've lost weight and just overall I feel energized. I even worked out yesterday (50 mins of Yoga). I'm pretty surprised I haven't had a huge detox. When we went raw couple years ago, our detox was HORRID. I was so sick. Yeah I've had bouts of a headache or feeling needy (for yummy vegan food)  but overall my energy level has skyrocketed.

Juice intake on August 18, 2011

- 16oz beets and beet green juice

-56oz (green apple, cuke, celery and lemon juice)

-1/2tbsp chia seeds in water

-1 can Amy and Brien's Coconut Juice 

-16 oz grape/lime juice (everyone should try this)

-16 oz warm miso broth

SUPPLEMENTS: Chlorella, cal/mag, multi, D2

Day 4 and feeling STRONG

Ok so like I said yesterday it was pretty tough for both of us with the food cravings. We did allow ourselves to have a small dinner of miso soup (hot water and organic white miso paste). Still fluid, still low sugar and virtually no carbs.
I just need to rave about Oliver's blood sugar... freaking fantastic. Here is a breakdown. Now we're talking about a very brittle type 1 diabetic. I have to state also that normal blood sugar is in the 85 range. His norms were 200 and we thought a BS of 150 was GREAT.

Blood Sugar and Juice intake for August 16,2011

--Waking BS: 75

--Had 16 oz green juice BS: 110

--He took his 10 units of Lantus (long acting)

--16oz juice BS 125

--1 hour later checked it, BS 142 so took 2 units of Novolog (fast acting)

--He felt low around dinner so had 16 oz grapefruit/carrot juice

--He hit BS 200 so took 2 unit Novolog and it went back to normal within 15 mins

After work (roughly 1030p) BS: 119

Around midnight BS: 68 so he drank some almond milk and grapefruit juice

For August 17, 2011

--Waking BS: 110, he took his 10 units Lantus

--16 oz green juice BS 150 so took 2 units Novolog

--Had 12 oz raw green smoothie

--About 230p BS 94

--More green juice BS 111

--He felt low around 1030p so he rank some beet apple juice

--BS at 1130p 139 so took 2 units of Novolog

For August 18, 2011

--Waking BS 130, so he took 8 units Novolog

--18oz green juice, BS 20 mins later was 139 so he took 2 units Novolog

That is as far as we have gotten today. 

This doesn't seem to include all the green juice he does eat, he is getting roughly 72 oz green juice, maybe 12-16 oz raw almond milk, we did have some miso soup and he will have small amounts of fruit juice if low. 

How he feels? Let's just say this is a man (and I love him mucho) that does NOT like to get up in the morning. It is a major pain as he has to pull himself out of a fog (due to high blood sugar) and its literally like a "hangover" he says. He was up bright and early 730 chipper as can be!!! REALLLY!! I have to usually drag him out by 10:30-11 in the morning to help me get stuff done. He even fed Connor breakfast while I juiced. Amazing. Simple amazing. He also states that he  is not sweating like normal (due to high/low blood sugar) and On this Day 4, the cravings have lessened. Oh and get this? He did some push ups and sit ups this morning. Its like a brand new revitalized man. I am oh so happy. 

Day 3, inexplicable energy and happiness

Wowser! At first this morning I didn't want to get out of bed despite the swats to the face by mister monster Connor. As soon as I got up, I attended to him, set him up in his bouncer and downed about 48 oz of water. Then I hit the juicing business! I made myself about 56 oz of beet, cucumber, celery, baby carrot, grape tomato, ginger, beet greens! and kale juice. Maybe its the addition of the beet greens, maybe its that we are at Day 3 but I almost immediately had a sense of crazy energy happiness. Pretty awesome. Oliver woke up with a bs of 110. Continued in awe of the power of green juices.

Day 2 Fantastic-ness

Last night was difficult, I'm not going to lie. The cravings were BAD. But Oliver and I stuck it out. He said his blood sugar yesterday did not rise above 130! Hot dang. Got up this morning, I was a little bit dizzy but I got the juicing done for the day. (Takes me over an hour prep and clean up time). Well worth it though. I made Oliver over 72oz green juice and some raw almond milk. The bestest news of all, he woke up with a BS of 75! It hasn't been that in.. well... a long time. He then had 16 oz green juice and checked it half an hour later and it was 110. Then he had another green juice an hour later and it only went to 122. This is amazing. He cut his Lantus (long acting insulin) down to 10 units (from 20-30) and hasn't taken any Novolog (fast acting). This is all in just 1 day! Simply amazing.
I did make him some carrot/grapefruit juice JUST in case his bs drops at work.

I've made myself over 56 oz of: (for the course of the day)
Beet, carrot, grapefruit, cucumber, celery, kale, lemon and ginger

Also best thing I've heard out of Oliver's mouth today: "I'm craving a kale, avocado salad" Dude, that sounds yummy.

I feel good, I've periodically been dizzy but I just drink more water and juice and I think I'll make a dense smoothie later afternoon. I've been keeping count of our calories and nutrient intake and all looks good.

AND THEN....


I got an email that I've been accepted into the Child Welfare  Training Advancement Program. This means up to 75% of my tuition is getting covered while I attend my MSW program. I can't even write about how excited/glad/relieved I am.


Update: 21:14. Oh man oh man oh  man. All the food in the kitchen is looking pretty sweet and literally screaming at me. I made a smoothie (a whole bag of sweet tender greens, water, frozen strawberries and some raw almond butter) but I didn't even want it, Connor had  a little bit. I drank only half of it. I've already finished my juice.. I really don't feel like breaking out the juicer again and have to clean up. So I'm gonna suck down some water and breathe through it. I made Oliver a huge smoothie (Kale, unsweetened coconut milk, flax seed meal and coconut oil) for when he gets home. I know he's going to be starving. He messaged me that his bs around dinner time was 94!!!! I'm stunned. And uber happy and this gives me the confidence to keep going. Its not like we're not going to never eat solid food again.  I feel like I need to do this also to prove to myself I can stick to what I say. And I've really wanted to do a juice/smoothie feast for a long long time. I'm interested in weighing myself, I feel kinda lighter already. I'll probably check it on Friday.

Day 1 with my man

Despite the fact that we had to be up by 6am to drive up to Children's Hospital in Seattle for Connor, we are sticking to our guns. Oliver agreed to try my modified green juice/smoothie feast for a week. So late last night I put together tons of green juice (Broccoli, celery, romaine, lemon) for him and Carrot/Tomato/lemon for me. I also made him a large large green smoothie (spinach, protein powder and almond milk). I know technically Gabriel Cousens suggests the green juice to help reset his system but I did a calorie count and the green juice were very little. I don't want him to lose a lot of weight. Its taken him years to finally get to a good weight. Me on the other hand, lol, I'm ready to shed that baby weight. I managed to snag a box of cukes from Fred Meyers, 36 of them for 18 bucks. I'm quite happy, it will definitely help our juicing venture. It has a very tempting day as well as Connor and I headed to my parents house to hang out with Grandma and Shanelle. I did indulge in a handful of raw pine nuts (How could I not?)

So far here is my food intake:
24 oz of carrot/lemon/tomato juice (broken up in 8 oz servings)
I still have about 16 more oz that I will drink over the rest of the day
Handful of raw pine nuts
Half a coconut yogurt (non dairy) that I shared with Connor. (I just had to have a taste.. or 3)
A large spinach/banana/water smoothie
1 kombucha

So while it is not just juices/smoothies, at least it was easier to digest than an actual apple or vegan meal. We'll see how Oliver feels later. I feel tired and weak (as in I want to grab a mango or an apple or a vegan burrito or something)

Hungry hungry hungry

Ok, lately? I have been HUN-GARRRR-EEEE. I have my juice everyday, sometimes more than 2. But then I just kinda go crazy. I'm eating vegan, that really isn't that hard. We had the kids over and I made them spaghetti and guess who ate all the leftovers. MEEEEE! I think what is happening is since Oliver agreed to do a juice feast starting Monday and I'm going gung ho (with the addition of green smoothies) I'm over indulging in anticipation.

So I've been distracted from this blog by getting an invite to Google +. Seems interesting. I must go investigate. Find me on there!

Feeling all sorts of motivation...

I've been trying to compile a grocery list for this upcoming Monday's juice feast. It will feature Oliver on green juices (no fruit unless BS requires it) and I desperately need to dig out Gabriel Counsen's There is a Cure for Diabetes. I've been doing the math on all the veggies required and trying to map out where is the cheapest to obtain them. It'll be a combination of Costco, Fred Meyers and this little produce place by my parents house. Unfortunately the budget doesn't compensate for all of that. It goes over our budget just for Oliver's food. So I've been trying to conceive of ways to get around it. I want to make sure he is getting a good deal of calories but honestly without the addition of fruit he would literally have to eat pounds and pounds of juiced veggies. His juices I've decided will be:

Cucumber

Celery

Kale

Swiss chard

Parsley

Cilantro

Ginger

Garlic

Lemon

Lime

Romaine

That still leaves groceries needing to be bought for me, Jacob, Ollie, Hanna and bubbababy. I've decided to do green juices but make sure Oliver is getting the bulk of it and I can add fruit for caloric needs. And I will be doing green smoothies, spinach and bananas are super cheap. Smoothies are more filling as well. I'm debating whether adding a modified smoothie to Oliver's intake, if it would benefit him. I would nix the banana and blend spinach, almond milk and a protein powder. Actually this sounds like a good idea. Anyone (haha I know no one reads this) have any advice? I think I'm going to try to find a forum on this. 

Today's eats:

Breakfast: Green juice (Cukes and golden delicious apples with lemon), Chlorella

Snack: Leftover golden delicious juice, Cal/Mag supplement

Lunch: Carrot/ tomato juice (First time I've juiced tomatoes and WOWSER it was super good) DHA and D2 supplement

Snack: Kombucha

Dinner: Green smoothie: (Banana, coconut milk, coconut oil, raw hemp protein powder, and tons of spring salad mix, Multivitamin

Snack: Home made raw almond milk

Total calories------>1226

How I feel: Good, I feel good. I have been reallly thirsty today. Such an odd feeling when I'm consuming all liquids.

Hooray. I've convinced Oliver to....

Do a green juice fast starting on Monday! I'm super stoked as I do best when I have a "buddy." I have been vegan the last 2 days but only half raw. Usually my first part of the day is all raw and then evening/dinner time is cooked. I've been at my parent's house visiting and that is always very challenging.

Loving the creamy miso garlic dressing..

I have to start this post with the admiration I have for Miss AtV and her delicious recipe. I believe I will be making a huge batch for the upcoming Guild BBQ (Yes we are dorks and I currently do not play the game). So have I been raw the last 2 days? Mostly. Vegan? You betcha. Funny thing is when I tell my brain "Go 100% raw, being vegan feels like cheating." As I write, Connor, who has been army crawling for half a month, is now pushing up onto his knees and is really gaining mobility. Why do they grow up so dang fast?

Thursday's Eats August 4, 2011

Breakfast: A couple spoonfuls of the creamy miso garlic dressing ( so darn yummy) and a green juice: Cukes, celery, golden delicious apple, kale. Also a warm cup of lemon water. Probiotic and chlorella.

Snack: Raspberries, Kombucha

Lunch: Spring salad with the dressing and a handful of Tostitos chips dipped in it

Snack: more dressing, LOL. Also a multivitamin, DHA and D2.

Dinner: I didn't log what I had for dinner and quite honestly I can not recall

Friday August 5, 2011

Breakfast: Green juice (Cuke, green apple, kale, celery) Chlorella. 

Snack: Kombucha

Lunch: Spring salad mix with that heavenly dressing

Dinner: An awesome smoothie (Kale, banana, coconut oil, raw almond butter, frozen cherries, coconut kefir). Serious yumminess.

Snack/another dinner:  A can of Amy's Black Bean Veggie soup with 2 slices of soy vegan cheddar cheese and a dollop of the dressing as a sour cream alternative. Holy guacamole. Can we say "Lick the bowl" goodness?

Today Saturday August 6, 2011

Breakfast: Super mean green juice: Cucumber, kale, romaine, parsley, lemon and GARLIC. This juice will knock your socks off (in a good way). No fruit. I was a little dizzy after drinking but I felt fabulous.

Snack: Kombucha and a carrot/lemon juice

Lunch: Spring salad with more of the fantastic dressing

Snack: Banana smothered in raw almond butter

Dinner: A can of Amy's Black Bean veggie soup with a dollop of the dressing and a handful of cherries

My plan of the attack for the rest of the night is to consume more cherries and maybe another green juice if needed. I'm still working on attaining more high rawness for weight loss reasons. I feel pretty good right now.

Continuing to try...

So I hit a low the other day, then I hit a high and then I hit a snafu. I've stayed vegan though! :) Lets recount the last few days of goodies

Tuesday:

Breakfast: Green juice (160z), probiotic, chlorella

Snack: Kombucha and hummus

Lunch: Carrot juice and grape tomatoes

Snack: Vanilla soy milk (I needed to add some calories and some calcium)

Dinner: Green smoothie (almond milk, cashew butter, spinach, raw hemp protein, frozen cherries, chia seeds, and banana)

Snack: More hummus then way later some aloe vera juice

Total calories-->1260

Wednesday:

Breakfast: Carrot/celery juice, some raw honey (so yum) and probiotic and chlorella

Snack: Kombucha

Lunch: This is where the day went wrong. Oliver wanted pho so off we went tofu calling my name. I ordered the small veggie tofu pho and shared with Jakey ( I gave him all the noodles). I just had the broth, veggies and a couple pieces of tofu. IN hindsight I realized that is nothing to eat and made me super hungry

Snack: 1 pint of raspberries, more carrot juice

Dinner: Some veggie potstickers ( I was making them for Jake and I ended up with a plate of my own) and then this DELICIOUS eggplant punjab with eeeks Kettle chips and 2 slices of vegan cheddar cheese

Dessert: 2 ice cream bars (So Delicious dairy free)

Calories--> 1906

Then I woke up with some blemishes on my face! YIKES! I haven't had any in a while and they are usually small and go away quickly. But it must be from the week's stress or I started to detox a bit, I have a flare up of psoriasis still here on my right elbow. Egads. AND I have dinner tonight with an ex coworker. DOH.

Still searching for that peace..

I had to blog about whats up today as I've hit a weird spot. I've had very low energy today, feeling depressed and I'm sure that isn't all attributed to eating this way but I have not been hungry at all today and its been a struggle to keep up the calories today. The issues with the kiddos has really gotten me stressed out. I've recently (2-3 months) noticed a suspicious psoriasis case on my right elbow and in times of stress it flares. It has been gone for over a month but yesterday I had weird red itchy bumps and sure enough over the progression of today, scaly white itchy patches. While my diet hasn't been strictly 100% juice, I'm pretty sure I'm hitting a weird feeling spot. I just need to get over this hump. Funny thing is, I have no desire whatsoever for cooked food. Ive been in the house all day today, maybe that makes it easier as I don't keep junk food in the house.
I have had no focus or concentration today, my goal was to finish up this week's stats homework and study for quiz. I have yet to even open the book. Jake is with his dad tonight and Oliver is at work, so just me and the baby. I don't even have a desire to watch a movie or do much in the way of housework. I did the dishes. (Hooray, me!) The laundry isn't even all folded. (gasp). I've played with Connor and napped with Connor. We took a 2 hour nap! And I feel like going back to bed. Connor has other thoughts though.

Trying to find some inner peace.. or just not freak out..

First I'm going to address yesterday's food then I'm going to rant. Fair warning.

Breakfast: 16 oz green juice (Cuc, celery, romaine, green apple, nectarine), a huge class of water prior to the juice with cayenne, lemon and raw honey. Actually VERY tasty.

Snack: 8oz Kombucha

Lunch: Smoothie (Banana, raw hemp protein powder, vanilla soy milk (not raw) and frozen blackberries, 1 cup of lentil soup (now raw)

Snack: Another Kombucha and some Kimchi (oh yeah!!!)

Dinner: Half an avocado, carrot/lemon juice, a mango

Snack: A ton of watermelon

Exercise: 30 push ups broken up over the day and 1 mile walk while Jake was at soccer practice

Total Calories--> 1423. Much better. In hindsight I'm going to forgo the not raw soup.. It completely and thoroughly made me feel like a ravenous beast that I had to tame.

I spent most of my day at my parent's yesterday and it was temptation hell. Let me list them: Rice, chocolate cream pies, orange/cran muffins, doughnuts, cookies...... the list goes on but I'll stop there. Ok So I filched one lil bite of the orange/cran muffin.. no calories in that right? ;-). It was minuscule, really.

RANT TIME:
First off, I love my family. All of them. I get a call from left field from Ollie and Hanna's mom about the boys fighting during the week we had them. And let me just say this has escalated to the point that now she says the kids don't want to see us due to Jacob (6 years old) being "violent" and my father being "emotionally abusive." There is so much more to this story and I thought ranting would help but I now realize I just want to cry or eat a pie.

Juicy goodness

Yesterday's Intake (July 31, 2011)

Breakfast: 16oz green juice--> Cucumber, green apple, celery and romaine. A probiotic and chlorella

Snack: 8 oz Kombucha ( Found a super great deal on the Wonder Drink Brand at Grocery outlet, about 77cents a can)

Lunch: About 10 oz carrot/lemon juice, 1 avocado, some more chlorella

Snack: Spirulina and some more carrot juice just a few ounces

Dinner: Some grape tomatoes and leftover green juice (about 8 oz)

Snack: Banana with cashew butter (not raw), multivitamin and Vit D

=1100 calories (Now I know this is a bit low so I'm going to incorporate more smoothies)

There were times during the day where I felt mentally hungry, not actually physically hungry as long as I anticipated it and had my juice before letting hunger get out of control. Overall, I felt the best I have felt. I felt super glowy (I know not a word but it was how I felt). I did get lethargic around 5ish and slept with Connor while nursing for about an hour. Then I continued the daily grind of working on Statistics hell. Around 11pm was particularly hard because Oliver gets home around that time and wants to eat, therefore I want to eat. The kiddos are sleeping and I have free time to watch mind numbing movies or such. I did have some trouble falling asleep, usually I'm out like a light by 11:15 but I stayed up until 1am.

This morning I'm noticeably "thinner" and I feel GREAT! Oliver made hash browns and the smell nearly drove me mad but then I looked at my waistline and decided it wasn't worth it.I will post my food journal later tonight. I have to take Oliver to work so I can take Jakey to soccer practice later. I'm excited about that because I'm going to bring Connor's backpack and walk around the track while he practices. So yay! Some EXERCISE!

I'm also drinking copious amounts of water. I haven't noticed any changes in breast milk and Connor doesn't seem affected. He's quite the happy boy. Here are some pics of his dinner last night.

 I made him Avocado, spinach, and apple yumminess.

Wow time flew by!

A lot has happened this past month, we moved out into our own place! WOO HOO! Sweet beans. I have been negligent towards this blog but we just got wi-fi up so I can use my trusty ole laptop. A little recap on this past month: My eating while not 100% perfect (as usual but I'm ok with that) has been on the whole pretty darn good. Exercise, what's that? Unless you count moving and breastfeeding all day, that's pretty much it for now. I've been really struggling with a statistics class and I have to pass it in order to start my MSW in September. I also have a huge interview tomorrow at 10am for the CWTAP (child welfare training advancement program). Fingers, toes, eyes and anything else crossable crossed. Connor continues to grow big and strong and even more superduper cute and cuddly.

I just finished watching the documentary Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead. Great film. I joined their site and while it isn't recommended to juice feast (or reboot according to them) while breastfeeding, I am going to do a combo of juices and smoothies. The cost of juice feasting is out of my budget. I can stretch smoothies much farther. There won't be much of a detox for me as we drink juices and smoothies daily. I've found that I can buy a lot of organic carrots from Costco for 12 bucks and that makes about 2 juices a day for 6 days. Not bad! But I'm not a big fan of the sweet juices. I like em mean and green! We've been getting celery and cukes from Costco and haven't shopped at Fred Meyers because it is just so expensive. So I haven't been getting my KALE and I dearly miss it. I am going to have to go pick up some ginger though, that is another staple that is cheap and goes a along way. I am learning how to get the most bang for our buck. We have a lot of mouths to feed, we just had Hanna and Ollie for a whole week. I spent 150bucks at Costco and within one week, it was all gone.
One of the obstacles I face particularly when I try to just stock healthy food in the house is Oliver complains that there isn't enough food and is hungry all the time. He even *gasps* wants me to buy meat for the house and I'm just flat out refusing to. I did however pick him up Dr. Praegers Veggie Burgers from Costco. If you haven't tried them, I highly recommend them. Very very tasty. Ok I'm just rambling now. Connor is blissfully napping and I'm sitting here staring at my stats homework. I'm really at a loss. I've read and reread and watched all the tutorials and my brain refuses to grasp it.
So to wrap this up, I am going to get back to blogging everyday. Connor is getting older and really noticing our food and I want to send him the right message.

Day 38 and 39

Yesterday was pretty rad in food and exercise terms. Quick recap (down 2lbs)
I did 50 mins of turbo kickboxing! Then I came home and had some of Oliver's french fries DOHH but other than that my day was all vegan and high raw.

Here 's a list of things I may have that are not technically raw but I don't care:

Almond/coconut milk (usually buy the unsweetened version)

Hummus

Vegan dark chocolate

Vegannaise

Annie's Goddess dressing

Connor news:

He's been rolling for a while now, even rolled once or twice from his back to his front but yesterday he just "got it" and he's a rolling fiend. He can deftly roll from back to front in a second. He LOVES the mobility. 

He had an ultrasound yesterday for a bump on his nose area. It is called a hemangioma and now we have to go see an ENT specialist. I remember Jakey had one on his head but it was covered by his hair and it eventually went away. So phewww. No worries here.

Day 37 heck yeah

Yesterday was my first all raw day, sweet beans.

This is Jake eating my chia pudding breakast dish and some fresh banana and strawberry. It was delish. Connor was wondering where his was!

Today's Eats:
Breakfast: 4 cups water, half a personal watermelon (perfect)
25 min walk with Connor strapped in his carrier
Snack: Green juice (Kale, cucumber, green apple, orange and lime) roughly 1.5 cups
Lunch: Leftover collard wraps with sunflower seed pate, a cup of coconut milk (not raw but I don't care)
Snacks: Another half of personal watermelon, a few pieces of dark chocolate (vegan, not raw but I don't care) Raspberry smoothie( raw hemp protein, spinach, banana, agave, coconut milk)
20 mins kickboxing workout
Dinner: Half an avocado with some shredded coconut (not raw.....). I literally had to fight with Connor over this avocado, he won a couple bites. 2 cups of leftover green juice.


As of right now, I'm not physically hungry but I am mentally munchy. I just had to purchase to my Stats book and graphing calculator and had to revise the budget so I'm pretty grumpy considering I might also (prob will) have to pay to have another MMR for my MSW. I haven't even started the MSW and I'm broke. But blah, trying to vent out this frustration. Oliver's suggestion is Tequila. Hahahaha.

End of Day 35 and bright beginnings of 36

To sum up yesterday's food: Kashi Mayan bake, some cheese chipotle chips from Costco (DOH), a coconut water and instant mash potatoes with some shredded cheese (DANG IT, although if I would have had Daiya in the house I wouldn't have touched the real thing). I hard a very very hard time waking up this morning, pretty grouchy, especially when my son had a blowout in bed and I put my hand in a puddle of poo.

So far today:

Breakfast: Warm lemon water, more water, probiotic. Then a banana and a spoonful of raw almond butter before running to the grocery store

Snacky/Lunch: Kale Avo Salad and a kombucha
Snacks: Grape, a plum and some chia seed pudding mix (chia soaked in coconut milk, stevia, cinammon, unsweetened/unsulfured shredded coconut) with some diced banana
Dinner: Carrot, lime, and lemon juice roughly 2 cups
and these lovely collard wraps with sunflower seed pate and some diced avocado

Day 34 and start of Day 35

The Taste of Tacoma was in town (big celebration of food). I have a few gripes about prices but all in all we had a good time. Dad, Shanelle, Jacob, Connor and I went.

Oh how to recount the pigoutedness (yes my word):
I had a small veggie egg roll (no egg despite the name), some curly fries (Jakey hogged them all), corn on the cob (NO BUTTER, and still delicious) and a strawberry cooler.
We listened to some bands sitting in the grass, it was very pleasant. Then Jake, Shanelle and I ambled over to the rides section. Bummer, for 18 bucks, we got to ride 1 ride and then Jake got to go down the big slide. Pretty disappointing but it was super rad riding a "big boy" ride with my son. Great experience.
As we were getting ready to leave I noticed the plethora of funnel cakes walking around and just HAD to have one. So somehow I convinced myself that there wasn't any animal products in it and I completely pigged out on one shared with Dad and Shanelle. Then I googled the ingredients and BAM, milk and eggs. DOH. Oh well. New day.

Starting with:

Breakfast: Carrot, lime and lemon juice. Fresh lemon juice with water, lots of water. Probiotic.

Snack: Smoothie (Greens, banana, frozen cherries, raw hemp protein, raw honey, almond milk and flax meal), multivitamin, DHA and D3.

Day 33 recap

Breakfast: Chia mix cereal thingy (chia soaked in almond milk with raw honey and cinnamon), warm lemon water, probiotic

Snack: Strawberries

Workout: 1 hour Zumba/body sculpt. Loved it.

Lunch: (yikes) leftover vegan fried rice, grapes and some olive salad mix from Costco (so fatteningly yummy)

Dinner: This is all where it went off the charts in eating, Went to Caffe Dei with the sisters and their raw food prices are just a little bit much so I settled for the vegan grilled cheese (the Tree hugger) oh so delicious but it sent off the wanting more cooked food bells like nuts. Then I had half a vegan choc pb cup.

Snacks/more food: Then I went to Erika's house, I had 2 kombuchas (can we say "nirvana"), some animal crackers (no animal products involved)

We watched Dylan Dog (I'm pretty let down with that movie). Oliver came home and I made him a vegan grilled cheese with some curried lentil soup and of course I had the same. So my calories were OUT the roof.
OH well, I'm just happy it was all vegan. It is starting to feel the normal again, woot.

Another day 32 post...

"You love how eating fresh, natural, delicious, food makes you feel and look, but who has time for sprouting and dehydrating and taking up full-time residency in the kitchen? You're committed to healthful living and could stand to shed some pounds, but eat like a bird? Never! Food—hearty, flavorful, crave-worthy food—is to be savored and celebrated!"
This is copied from the Ginger is the New Pink blog which was taken from the Pure Market website who is offering a free giveaway. 


I am blogging about this lovely offer for a chance at snagging me some raw pie!


*fingers, eyes, ears, and toes crossed*

Updated Day 32

Today was jam packed full of errands, we ran to Top Food, then to Wal-Mart, then to Connor's 4 mth check up. They are scheduling him an ultrasound for that bump on his forehead we've been keeping an eye on. Doc is not sure what it is but I'm not too worried. He got some immunizations and the rest of the day was a little hard on him. His thigh is swollen and red and it took a lot (A LOT) of comforting to calm him down, plus an ice pack and some baby ibuprofen and a lot of nursing.
(oh and somewhere in there, I managed to make a Costco run, pheww I'm beat!)

The rest of the eats for today:

Snack: Coconut water and a kombucha and and half an Oskri coconut bar (not raw but too good to pass up)
Lunch: *Cringe a bit* Tofu fried rice (no egg). My stomach seriously felt super bloated after this, was not worth it, I ended really just wanting the mung bean sprouts and shredded cabbage on the side more.
Snack: More coconut water
Dinner: Has been a little bit of this, a little bit of that snacking: Grapes, strawberries and an olive salad mix (pickled, I'm pretty sure not raw but still healthy)

On to the fun part of today. Connor has officially cut a tooth, it is the top upper right tooth and I can feel the ridge poking out from the gum. He has been pretty crabby the last couple days. He is always grabbing our food and his interest is VERY high when people are eating around him. So Oliver and I decided to bust out the Baby Bullet and make him his very first meal.
I've done a lot of reading and I understand that more to the 5-6 mth range is ideal but his cues were really pushing us to reconsider.

Breast milk, a few small cubes of avocado and like 4 spinach leaves, plus a splash of coconut water

He liked it! We only gave him a few teaspoons full.

Woo hoo, everything is starting to come together. I am down another 1.5 lbs. (Go , me!) Tuesday night I blogged about my cravings. Here is what I did: I drank a crap ton of water and then had a kiwi and went to bed shortly after putting Connor to bed. Boy did I wake up feeling triumphant! (and super hyper)

Yesterday's intake

Breakfast: Water, chlorella, a probiotic, a nectarine and a kiwi 

Snack: Mixed greens with 3 oz sprouted tofu (not raw), kombucha

Lunch: leftover smoothie, coconut water, mango, spinach and frozen raspberries

Dinner: Kale Avo Salad (kale, avo, evoo, garlic powder, kalamata olives, and tomatos)

Pre workout snack: Big spoonful of raw almond butter

Workout: 1 hour of Turbo Kickboxing with the sisters at the gym

Post workout: More Kale avo salad and tons of water, a banana slathered with raw almond butter and a drizzle of agave syrup. So perfect.

I have been feeling slightly headachey lately, but overall my energy levels are soaring. Oliver is reluctantly following suit, I have to give him credit for making better choices lately. : ) 

Ok all that happy stuff aside here is a brief rant! Last night I found my mom holding Connor with my father putting a mozzarella cheese stick in his mouth and he was happily gnoshing away. I've never struck my parents before (hehe pheww) but I slapped my dad's hand away like a mother scolding her toddler! I'm still fuming. And my sister Erika's response to the incident when I told her, "A kid needs to eat, and enjoy life." WTF? I am his mother and I asked to be respected in the choices I make for this kiddo. Oliver backs the decision for a vegan lifestyle for him 100%. I don't care if my family decides I'm kooky for the way I eat, or that they will never change their own lifestyle but dadgummit, (sp?) I plan on giving Connor a healthy headstart in life. My only solution for right now is if my parents can not commit to NOT feeding Connor sh..err I mean junk, then I can not ask them to babysit him. I have wrung promises from my grandmother and my sisters, although I'm shaky on trusting Erika.. and yes Erika if you are reading this (highly doubt), I need more reassurance!

On to today:

Food

Breakfast: Water, probiotic and chia pudding/cereal mix (Chia soaked in almond milk, with raw honey, cinammon and banana)

HAPPY 4 MTHS OLD CONNOR!!!!

I am so very happy to have this addition to our family. It seems time is flying by and I'm trying to enjoy every precious second. He is a joy and I'm truly thankful for him. I love you Connor!!!

Day 30

Happy Summer everyone! It was beautiful here, actually warm. Our room is a bit muggy even with the window open. Does wonders for the soul, having the warm sunshine shining. :)

Food:

Breakfast: 4 cups water, chlorella tablets, probiotic and 2 cups green juice (cuke, apple, kale, lemon and lime)

Snack: Banana with raw almond butter, more and more water. Vitamin d3 and multivitamin

Lunch: Out to lunch with gram to a mexican restaurant. I ordered the housemade guac with carrots and celery. I did have a few tortilla chips with the green salsa. YUM

Snack: A coconut water, mango, frozen raspberries and spinach smoothie

Another snack: WATER!!! 2 cups of green juice made this morning

Dinner: Salad, kombucha and Kale chips

Snack: A choc chip cookie dough larabar. DOH I thought this was vegan and raw but turns out "may contain milk". Poo poo. 

I'm having major craving issues right now, slight headache but my skin looks really good. Oh oh oh oh.. somebody is cooking a pizza hot pocket and it is wafting through the house. I think I am mostly craving bread right now, ooo hot warm bread with butter.. Instead I'm gonna go drink more water, nurse Connor and put him to bed.

Day 28 and 29

I hope everyone had a lovely Father's day. I took mine to see X-Men First Class. Supremely enjoyable movie. I managed (triumphed) to not have any tantalizing popcorn. Instead I brought along a bag of grapes. I walked out of that movie feeling so good about myself. The last 2 days have been pretty darn good, mostly raw. I'd say about 80%. And I'm feeling great, just really excited at the prospect of continuing this journey and seeing results. Its funny as I type this, my son Jacob asked if he could read this when I'm done. How cute. Today was a very long day that ended with Jake's soccer practice.

I have to pick up Oliver from work but I've promised myself that as soon as he gets home and baby Connor is snoring for the night I'm going to take the longest, hottest bath ever. It just sounds so so very inviting. I can't wait.

How to recount my nutritional yummies? I need to get better about blogging at the end of the night each day's worth of food.

Today:

Breakfast: Banana with raw almond butter (by far my favorite meal right now) and a cup of warm lemon water, chlorella tablets

Snack: Huge HUGE green salad with a kombucha

Lunch: Coconut water and some coconut bar thing I found at Top Food (not raw but only 2 ingredients coconut and rice syrup) and tons of water

Dinner: Guacamole and carrots, a cup of herbal tea and tons of water, oh and another kombucha

*Oh and guilty admission: I did have some salmon that my mom baked tonight, I honestly have not had meat of any kind in forever but something about the fish just called to me.*

Now that I'm reading, I noticed I haven't actually eaten much but I've been VERY thirsty today. It seems I just can't get enough water. No issues with breastmilk production so I'm not worried. Connor does have a runny nose so I'm not sure if that is linked with more raw in my diet or not, I will keep monitoring.